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My husband Bob, son Ron, and
daughter Tawny have always known that finding subjects to paint is more
important to me than shopping, cooking, or making money. As a mom, I
spent more hours in the field photographing and sketching than I did
homemaking. As a wife, I know that my passion for painting often puts
my husband’s needs in second place. Instead of complaining about how
different I am, or how I might neglect them, my family has always
supported my passion.
In San Diego County, I would often
pack up my canvas, easel, and paint and spend all day painting on
location, or plein air as the French say. The mild and
consistent weather made it a joy to paint on the spot. When I arrived
in Copper Center, while on vacation in Alaska in 1976, I was armed and
ready with all of my outdoor painting gear.

Copper Centers Past
15 x 30 acrylic
I would set up early in the morning
in a beautiful location. Within minutes I was swarmed with mosquitoes.
Mosquitoes were a minor distraction compared to the regular and
predictable afternoon wind. No matter how many bungee cords were tied
to my easel and anchored to rocks, the wind managed to catch the canvas
and send it sailing. Then there was the matter of twenty hours of
sunlight. For me, a good painting is two-thirds light and one-third
subject. The low, shadow-casting light of early morning or late evening
is the best, which meant I either had to set up and start painting by
three o’clock in the morning, or stay out until eleven o’clock at
night. I will spare you the details about the rain, but suffice it to
say that it managed to rain just a little bit every single day.

Summer Storm
20 x 24 acrylic
Late August our summer vacation was
coming to an end, we needed to be driving the Alaska Highway home in
time for school. Reluctant to leave, our family made an unusual
decision. Stay for a winter in Copper Center to see what life is like
in the wilderness, and return home the following year. The goal was to
allow me to devote myself to painting, grant Bob a break from our hectic
city life, and provide the children a new experience. Camping in our
bubble top van was fine for the summer, but with winter approaching we
needed better shelter. Late August we rented temporary quarters, a
rustic two room log hut next to the Klutina River, displaying a sign
“Caribou Cabin’. The name, no doubt, was derived from the fact that the
cabin is decorated inside and out with caribou antlers.
This is the beginning of an
intensive, serious period for me to do nothing but paint. The cabin is
private enough to work, and has the added bonus of a yard full of
interesting relics as subjects to paint. First, a few items need
tending before I can begin. Back to school clothing prices here are
ridiculous, so I placed an order with Sears Catalogue. Planning ahead
is an important part of surviving in the bush, and I had a lot to learn.
The cabin is heated by a free
standing iron wood stove called an “airtight.” Last night the
temperatures dropped to 28 degrees, with a little paper and kindling I
figured out how to build a fire in the airtight. In the morning I set
up my easel outdoors and, with the sun warming my back, began a large
acrylic painting of the log bunkhouse next door near the river. Because
of its size, this painting will take several days to complete, meanwhile
the sky began to fill with ominous looking clouds. A seasoned outdoor
painter by now, I kept painting through gentle showers. Just as
suddenly as the rain began, it stopped and the sun appeared. Painting
outdoors had become quite manageable, the mosquitoes disappeared in July
and the days were growing shorter. Weather was still the determining
factor.
Later I did a little bookkeeping,
and calculated the impact of the costs of living here. Our two room
cabin cost us as much per month as our 1600 square foot house on one
acre in Lakeside, California. Grocery prices are twice as much! We
will have to do some adjusting in order to make this adventure work. My
husband agreed to take a job at the local store, quite a change for an
Aerospace Engineer, but an opportunity none the less. With 14 hours of
daylight, loosing 6.5 minutes of light each day, everything is changing
faster than we imagined. A little shiver of apprehension ran up my
spine, and I wondered for a moment, if we were doing something we would
regret. I put that thought out of my mind.
Soon I settled into a routine.
While the children are occupied with adventures in the yard, I paint
most of each day. Some days are interrupted by intermittent rain, but
as soon as the sun shines it is beautiful! With cooling weather, the
distant Wrangell Mountains become clearer and clearer. Atmospheric haze
created by the summer heat is nearly gone. This is a gorgeous time of
the year in Alaska. I enjoy painting outside, my bunkhouse piece is
nearly finished, and I begin plans to embark on pen and ink sketches.
Some afternoons the smell of a pot of stew or chili simmering on the
stove, drifting from the cabin to my easel in the yard, gives me
incredible feelings of pleasure and contentment.

Bunkhouse
24 x 30 acrylic
Twenty rolls of slide film taken
earlier in the summer arrived in the mail today. Without the aid of my
light table and file cabinets back home, it is a chore to label and sort
all of the photos. One at a time each slide is carefully inserted into
a small portable viewer and held by hand up to a light to see. I’m
beginning to miss my projector and screen. Hand cutting ink board with
a case cutter is easier now that I’ve borrowed a straight edge from my
landlord. Excited to try pen and ink on location, I began a drawing of
the bunkhouse window.
Fall is about a week away, colors
are changing rapidly. At night the temperature is reaching 24 degrees.
A lot of my time is spent heating water on the wood stove, and keeping
the cabin tidy. In the beginning it was an adventure to live without
running water, but for an extended period it is getting tough. We do
laundry and take showers at a friends house. In Copper Center many
families have lived this way for years, and know no other way of life.
We limit ourselves to a shower once a week, spit baths serve in between,
and 2-3 loads of laundry a week compared to the 7-10 I used to do back
home. So far we are managing fairly well. Soon we will have to gather
fire wood with the chain saw. The large, neatly stacked pile of wood
provided with the cabin is nearly gone. Last night the temperature
dipped to 19 degrees, and I’m using more and more logs each morning and
evening to keep warm. The ink drawing of the bunkhouse window is
complete and I am quite pleased. I enjoyed detailing the rhythm and
flow of the bark in the logs by combining the techniques of crosshatch,
dots, and short strokes.

Patterns
20 x 24 ink
Today I woke up feeling lousy, my
head and my body ached. I stumbled around the cabin not even wanting
coffee until mid morning. I tried to make the best of my situation by
staying indoors. Before long a pen and ink drawing of the airtight
stove and wood box was complete. It came out nice. I began to feel
better by afternoon, and in the mood to broach a painting of a place I
saw in Chitina. Floating in the middle of a pond is a red outhouse.
Bob, who rarely makes a comment while I’m working, questioned my choice
of subject matter. Using my slide as reference, it is difficult to see
the tiny image in the viewer and hard to work in the darkness of the
cabin. The painting is coming along well even with the obstacles.

Airtight
14 x 16 ink
After school we washed hair and I
gave haircuts. It took all day to heat a huge kettle of water on the
airtight. Being by myself every day in the cabin is a new experience.
I often think of how lonely it could be for an elderly person, alone in
the darkness of winter when the temperature drops to 40 below zero.
Planing ahead, I rationalize that I could manage fine if I had a few
more conveniences such as good lighting, a slide enlarger and a drafting
table. Currently I’m working under extremely makeshift conditions.
Four of us living in a two room
cabin is interesting at best. This place seems like a mansion after
camping in our van all summer, but compared to our home in California,
it is cramped. We have relaxed our standards quite a bit. Bathing once
a week is getting to be a habit, we have almost forgotten the ritual of
daily hot showers. It almost seems a waste of water. In order to keep
laundry to a few loads each week, we wear the same jeans 3-4 days, and
change shirts every 2-3 days. I would have been disgusted by this a
year ago, now I’m beginning to feel like the clean clothes syndrome of
the city is another questionable habit. The extra time and energy
washing and folding can now be devoted to other things. We are
thoroughly enjoying the simplicity of this life, perhaps because we know
it is temporary. Would I enjoy this if it were all I had? It is too
soon to know, we haven’t been through a winter yet.
The last two days have been
wonderful! My lifestyle has changed so dramatically. I can choose to
do exactly what I want each day, I look forward to tomorrow, and that is
a glorious feeling. Cool temperatures and rain kept me inside today, I
worked on the floating outhouse painting. I tackled mastering the
airtight. By adding small logs to the fire every few hours, I kept the
temperature indoors near a perfect 72 degrees all day! The floating
outhouse piece still needs work, but is coming along, using a slide as
reference seems to limit my use of color. It is time to put the slide
away and allow creativity to reign.
My California eyes are overwhelmed
by the intensity of fall. Over a slow leisurely breakfast we sat
looking out the window at the colors of the world. As we watched, the
clouds broke up and the sun came out, like a smile. I decided to take
my camera and drive the back roads letting the brilliant tints and hues
fill my senses. Later, I was offered a short flight over Mt. Drum to
see the freshly fallen snow. In the week since I have flown, dramatic
changes appeared in the landscape. Before, the land below was endless
green, miles of viridian hued trees and emerald tundra. Now the
landscape is splattered with every color known, like a quilt. Deciduous
trees are yellow and orange with touches of chartreuse. Interspersed,
are dark green spruce, creating random patterns. Blue, green and brown
lakes are bordered by yellow and white grass, brilliant magenta and
fluorescent orange carpet the sloping ground just below snow covered
peaks. When lit by the sun, entire land is nearly blinding.

Caribou Cabin
18 x 24 acrylic
Earlier this week, Caribou Cabin
became my subject. With a background of autumn color, I am working to
show the beauty of the sixty year old logs. I painted outdoors all
morning, before I could eat lunch I soaked my hands in warm water to get
the circulation in my fingers moving again. Concentrating on my work, I
didn’t realize I was so cold. Back at work in the afternoon I was so
absorbed that I lost track of time, until I had to shut down from loss
of light about 6:30PM. The stove had gone out, with a little rekindling
I got the fire going, warmed myself and made dinner. Intense
concentration all day in the cold air, sapped my energy. I fell into
bed dead tired.
As closely as possible, I am trying
to capture on canvas, the riot of color that fall brings to this land.
Born and raised in a mild climate, this palette is new to me, and my
limited knowledge of color mixing has inhibited me to match what I see.
I am experimenting, trying anything, struggling to recreate what is
before me. At first my paintings seem as brilliant as any of Van
Gough’s, yet when compared to the actual landscape they fall flat. This
is a challenge.
Wind, cold, clouds and wind. When
the wind blows, it is cold. Small aircraft could not fly today. Along
with the wind, it is snowing on Mt. Drum. Inside, the loosely chinked
cabin logs allowed thin wisps of cold wind, like frigid spider webs, to
flow around the room. Ashes puffed through the door of the airtight
back into the cabin covering everything in a fine, gray film. Closing
the chimney damper stopped the ashes, but also put out the fire. I quit
battling the wind inside, and looked for a shelter to use to paint
outside. Shielded from gusts by a semi van parked behind the store, I
toiled on a canvas of fireweed surrounding decaying log dwellings.
Sudden thermal blasts turned my stretched canvas into a kite. I painted
as long as I could bear the weather, then came back to the dark cabin to
finish. After being outdoors, it takes awhile for my eyes to adjust to
the subdued light indoors. I moved the canvas outside to check values,
inside to paint, back and forth like a ping pong ball. Stimulated by
the weather, I tackled three paintings simultaneously all afternoon, and
finished each. To bring out color and depth, each received a coat of
Hygel gloss. I like the way palette knife paint looks when applied
impasto, heavy and textured, and the gel gives the surface a rich
gloss. Today, it became mandatory to solve the lighting problem in this
cabin.
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Alaska Garden
20 x 24 acrylic |

Weeds of Fire
15 x 30 acrylic |

Copper Centers Past
15 x 30 acrylic |
Working indoors, more than before,
the radio is my company. Today I am feeling isolated, irritable, with
no telephone, and no real close friends, and my radio company is
terrible. No station choices, just the local christian station and I
let it put me on edge. Sermons, true story confessions, and preaching.
All day long. I believe in God, I pray, and consider myself a christian,
but this is turning me off. In between these melodramas they play
unknown hymns. I like hymns, but not these hymns. They seem to go out
of their way to find unpopular music. The devil must make modern music,
it must be the devil. I listen to the news, which is very out of date,
and the “Caribou Clatters” a message time for those living without
communication systems, and the “Bulletin Board” where items are for
sale. Today the radio is unsettling, I shut it off and put a worn out
tape in the deck.
Aggravated, I make some
resolutions. If we decide to stay in Copper Center, I will resume my
magazine subscriptions, get my books, and order a big city newspaper. I
feel so completely out of touch. In many ways I like the isolation, but
I need to know what is going on and to keep abreast of the world news.
Television is very unpredictable, a weak signal can be received in some
areas from a community tower, maintained by volunteers. I also resolve
to take a trip or two every year to the “outside” to see what is
happening in the art, fashion, movie, and theater worlds.
This morning I sit by the airtight
stove listening to the wind howl outside. Every once in awhile I feel
an icy draft across my legs, it is coming from the boarded up door of
the old storm entry. As the weather grows colder, our landlord
suggested that we drop the wool blanket that is nailed to one side of
the doorway, across the old entry. He said that this blanket will keep
a lot of cold from entering the cabin. I often wondered why that
blanket was nailed there. If I had a wind chill chart I could determine
the true temperature, the outside thermometer registers 45 degrees, but
with 20 mph wind the chill factor enters into the calculation.

Oil Heat
16 x 20 ink/acrylic
Fresh snow has fallen on all of the
mountain ranges now and the radio just reported chains are required at
Thompson Pass, the road to Valdez. Seven inches of snow is in the pass,
and more is falling. Outside my window, autumn has peaked. Within a
week, I think, the leaves will have fallen, but right now the world is
still ablaze with color. Winter will soon be here, it is happening
fast.
There are a few things I want to
note inside the cabin, lest I forget if I ever get back to a prefab,
cookie cutter, automatic type life in the city. First, the windows.
They begin about two feet off the ground, to look out you must stoop
over. Everything inside is on a small scale, like a playhouse. The
bucket and dishpan sit on a counter top that is about mid-thigh in
height, and is perfect for my ten year old daughter. The ceiling is
about 6’6” and standard furniture looks awkward inside. In front of the
window is the table, it hides the lower half of the glass, but is
positioned perfectly to see out when you are sitting down.
Interior decoration is eccentric.
On the inside walls, paraphernalia of a lifetime is hung museum style.
Skins from hunts from long ago decorate the living room and caribou
antlers hang over the bed in such a way that if you aren’t careful your
skull could be fractured. Funny shaped rocks, glass bottles, glass
floats, dried bird wings and weathered sticks are perched all over, on
shelves, table tops, and tucked into nooks and crannies of the logs.
The bookshelf is full of ancient National Geographic and Alaska
magazines. All the same furniture and rugs were in the cabin when it
flooded from the breakup of the Klutina River a few years ago, and their
condition is greatly influenced by having been submerged in frozen mud.
Things like this don’t seem to faze the locals, you just thaw things
out, shake them off and put them back to be used again. We have
contributed to the decor, a painting is propped against every available
space, and before another month is over we won’t be able to walk without
moving art equipment. We have far surpassed being able to bring
everything back to California in our van.

Fire in the Woodpile
10 x 24 ink/watercolor
Sometimes little things cause me to
muse. Alaska doesn’t have bugs, spiders,and lizards as we know them in
southern California. With the exception of the intensity of the summer
flying insects, this place seems bug free. Back home, a cabin like this
one would be full of black widow spiders, cockroaches, sow bugs and
other creepy critters. You could never keep them out of this house of
cracks. Our biggest problem here will be rats and squirrels. After
rats plundered our garbage can outside one night, we placed rat poison
around the exterior. I can hear them running over the top of the
ceiling, so I know they lurk and wait to pounce on my big bag of puffed
rice, or flour, but we haven’t seen any inside yet. Overall it isn’t as
spooky or as distasteful as it might seem, on first glance.
The power was out for an hour and a
half this morning. It didn’t affect me, as I was bundled up sitting
outside sketching the front of the cabin. The wind was ferocious, I had
to come inside every 20 minutes to thaw, but the ink drawing is coming
along nicely. I’m going to start an ink drawing of some of the objects
inside the cabin and wait for the weather to calm. The wind blew over
70 mph, all aircraft were tied down, and we heard reports of a small
plane blowing over. All afternoon I kept at my work, I redid areas of
the large fall landscape and puttered around all of my paintings like a
gardener watering her plants. Late in the afternoon I put a stew on the
stove, the aroma filled the cabin and made it quite pleasant inside. We
are enjoying a quiet evening writing letters, writing in journals, and
reading. The tooth fairy paid a visit to both of my children tonight.
She even makes visits in Alaska!
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Caribou Cabin
20 x 24 ink
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Alaska Gingerbread
20 x 24 ink
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The wind continued, it did many
things to the fall landscape, it ripped the leaves swirling them in
circles. Snow covered the red carpeted mountain slopes. The wind made
it cold. Whenever I stepped outside, the chill factor froze me to the
bone. Every crack in the cabin was exposed, and seemed to loom larger,
and larger, creating a gaping hole. I pulled the wool blanket across
the doorway, and it billowed into the room. It did keep the room
warmer. Even the hanging glass balls inside the windows are in motion,
from microscopic cracks in the sills. I kept the stove banked, and sat
close by working on an ink drawing of the cabin with moose antlers. At
lunch Bob brought home a clamp on light he found at the store, and
clamped it to my easel. It gave very good light. I stayed comfortable,
but felt the stiff coldness that comes with inactivity. After school,
the children and I walked to the store and back in the brisk air, and
upon return the cabin seemed way too hot! My inactivity that morning
made me feel cold, even in a hot room. We opened a door to cool the
place down, the wind was subsiding. During the evening, without any new
wood, the stove went stone dead and we were very comfortable. The wind
had stopped.
Today Mt. Drum is covered by clouds
that form a soft curved cap over the top, a formation called a
lenticular, indicating winds in excess of 100 mph. I find it
interesting that something so beautiful can be so devastating. The
cabin is situated below the landing pattern for the upper strip in
Copper Center, and almost any time of day we can see private planes
coming and going. But, for the last three days, nothing has happened at
the airstrip but the wind.

Golden Coins
20 x 24 ink/watercolor
Note: October 12, 1976. I’ve been
sitting at the table beside the window all morning watching snow cover
the ground, just as it did yesterday. The airtight is generating a
warmth that makes these ancient logs feel safe and secure. Feelings of
sadness sweep my thoughts as I reflect that this is my last day of
living in the cabin, our first home in Alaska. It is a summer cabin,
and we have stayed as late into the year as possible. It will no longer
be able to protect us from the cold. Copper Center winters experience
months of sub zero weather, and weeks of 40 below or more. As I
carefully pack and make lists, I treated myself to a wonderful breakfast
of eggs, bacon, toast and orange juice. I savored every bite, and
enjoyed the aroma while I let myself enjoy the peace and serenity of
this special place. Tears stung my eyes as I said “good bye.” Caribou
Cabin will remain in my heart and memories forever.
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